Day 9 Part 2

Oh yeah, that's right. I went to the gym again. I burned 1400+ calories today. Damn straight. The reason I am scared of going to the gym in the evening is because of a sickness only my good friends know. I have an uncontrollable need to get a fantastic parking spot. I dented my last car because of it.

And the main complaint I have about my fabulous apartment is the lack of parking come 6pm. I would have to park 3-4 buildings away. But after parking said 4 buildings away last night, I realized that it was nothing. It wasn't like I had to park on the street across the highway. It was across a parking lot within my complex. So, my fear is beginning to wane. If I can get over my parking fear (and my fear of dead bodies--not having to do with the gym necessarily) I could so lose this weight.

So, gym twice a day. Who was I kidding. Me working out at home. HA!

But on another happy note, I have been rebitten by the writing bug. Half of my manuscript has been outlined. And I know how the rest will go. I need to get cracking harder, but I think I know what my motivation will be. I just need to get it out there for the world.

Here we go. Day 10-- double digits. Bring it on!

Day 9: iPod

It's becoming a miracle that I get up every morning and get to the gym by 530a. But alas, I did it again today. Now, honestly, this blog is stupid. I know the readers (my friends) could care less how my daily gym routine goes, and honestly I'm surprised I have enough to say about this journey I'm on to write every or every other day.

But today, today was a little piece of drama that sucked. I did my 45 minutes on the elliptical, and as a reward, I get on the bike and race for 15 minutes to get my 700 calories burned. Well, at the five minutes to home mark, Ms. Beyonce started to belt out her "Single Ladies" and I did the bike sprint. Thirty seconds later, my beloved iPod dies. Now, this thing is amazing to have lasted four years with little to no problems. But now, the battery is shit. I have to charge it every other day. But honestly, I never thought four minutes and thirty seconds would be so long.

And echoing the blog written yesterday, who was on the TV when my iPod died? Mariah Carey!! Between Ms. Sports Bra, Ms. Could Use a Sports Bra, and Ms. Stupid Tattoo I had the privy of seeing whose movie yesterday, I'm surprised I'm up and ready to take on the day.

Tuesday. Welcome to the Suck!

Day 8

Today started with a bang. Somehow I made it back to the gym. That makes two Mondays. Yeah! I did okay on calories, but I did make some seriously orgasmic jalapeno corn bread, and damn I'm awesome.

But watching Mariah Carey on the big screen at the gym and staring at the ass of a tiny girl on the bike in front of me wearing a sport bra, I got some perspective. I'm on a fantastic track. No, I'm not near where I want to be, but you know, I made it to the gym. And that is an accomplishment.

The office was incredibly tense, and you know what? Stress increasing your heart rate and makes you perspire, so in effect, did I burn calories at the office? I certainly hope so because I did have a low calorie intake, and a high calorie burn, but a little extra off never killed anyone.

Not much else to report. No, I haven't started writing. Even an outline. I'm hoping to start on it this weekend, but maybe this week some time. On track though. That's what counts.

Day 7: Is Lady Gaga really a hermaphrodite?

I made a new work out mix. Would you like to know it?
1) Stranger by Hilary Duff 2) Kill the Lights by Britney Spears 3) Shut Up and Drive by Rihanna 4) Umbrella by Rihanna 5) Paparazzi by Lady Gaga 6) Genie in a Bottle by Christina Aguilera 7) Lovegame by Lady Gaga 8) Funkytown by Lipps, Inc 9) Circus by Britney Spears 10) Just Dance by Lady Gaga 11) Breakout by Miley Cyrus 12) I'm a Slave for U by Britney Spears 13) In the Ayer by Flo Rida 14) Womanizer by Britney Spears 15) Gypsy Woman by Hilary Duff 16) Single Ladies by Beyonce 17) See You Again by Miley Cyrus 18) Glamorous by Fergie 19) Don't Stop the Music by Rihanna 20) Poker Face by Lady Gaga

Anyway, that's what kept me company as I finished Bright Lights, Big Ass by Jen Lancaster at the gym. But I was thinking about that rumor that apparently is old that Lady Gaga is a hermaphrodite. The pictures are damning, but whatever. I like her music. They're good to drive and work out to.

So that means, that somehow at 4p today, I dragged myself from my cozy apartment to the gym and did my hour work out. That's right. If that's not dedication, I don't know what is. Of course, Galen and I didn't go this morning. I did manage to be a bitch before he left, but I just can't seem to win in areas of our relationship. Nonetheless, I went to the gym and burned my 600+ calories right on schedule.

While I was working out, and reading from Jen Lancaster, I was thinking the things you don't think...ever. The what if... What if I hadn't gotten off schedule. What if I kept the 20 lbs off and where would I be right now if I stayed course. I'd be about 15 lbs from my goal weight. Can you believe that? I could have been at my goal weight of 130 by my birthday. Funny how shit happens. I'm hoping to get those 15 off by my birthday and battle the 40 next year.

As much as my goal is still set to finish a draft of my book by the end of the year, weight loss is definitely the priority, and I am not taking it as seriously. I need this weight off like you wouldn't believe. I'll get there. It will be good. Positive

Day 6: Fail

Last night, my wonderful boyfriend came in from College Station to spend the weekend with me. So, I cooked, which made my calorie mark a little high. But not overly crazy. We then went to bed around 10p. Both extremely exhausted.

This morning, I distinctly remember waking up just before 8a and saying, "Let's go to the gym." He then draped his arm across me and said, "Okay." We then went back to sleep for a couple hours. So, the gym was out. We made a healthy breakfast--well, I did. And then he went off to play Magic. I love it when he comes in town for just a few hours to play a large fraction of it at a store across town.

Anyway, we had, and by we, I mean me, a healthy lunch, and I spent the majority of the day catching up on my Netflix movies. All the while munching, snaking, and shopping. Oh, but I did buy a George Foreman grill. This will help with healthy cooking. So, it's like I'm preparing for health today. See below.

I did go to the gym today. Despite everything, I got a massage. And honestly, while I did not burn and cardio calories, I had my muscles repaired by the wonderful masseuse, Stephany. But there are many diets and work outs that call for a day off. Galen did say after lunch that he would make both of us go to the gym tomorrow morning before his appointment and subsequent exit from Austin. So my fraction of time with my boyfriend, who I love, will be spent apart or sweating profusely. And not in a good, or pleasurable way unfortunately.

This did turn into more of a rant than a blog, but I wanted to relay that I did nothing today. But I will feel good in knowing I burned 3600 calories this week (a pound), and the damage I saw on the scale was not as bad as it was on Monday. I would put the number on this, but I'm honestly too ashamed to admit the number. It is much less than what it was in high school, but it is more than what it was a year ago.

Tomorrow, the gym. Monday, the gym. Hopefully, tomorrow writing. I feel like the first step to writing is an outline. I don't have an outline. I will map something out tomorrow and get to it. I have up to chapter three, and the first act break is coming up.

Day 4

Another day, another dollar. I've been going pretty steady. This morning, I got to the gym half an hour earlier even. It is official, I have been re-bitten by the gym bug, and I am so glad. I've missed the itch. But now it's 9p, and I'm exhausted and looking forward to going to bed early to get to the gym early.

When I went to the gym like it was a religion, I was in the best shape of my life since I was 6 years old. It was an amazing feeling, and I want it back and then some.

You know what? I hated going to the gym after work because there were so many damn people there. It was so crowded and loud, it hurt to even go. I wouldn't stay more than 45 minutes because it was so annoying. Also, I was so tired after the eight hour day and stresses from my oh-so-stressful job of erotica publishing. The first morning I went, I stayed the full hour, and I didn't even notice. What helps also is the lovely woman named Jen Lancaster. She is the most hilarious woman I've read in writing, and she keeps me entertained on the elliptical and bike. Plus, I get an added ab work out by laughing.

Anyway, I was going in the direction of, there are a lot of people there in the morning. Not nearly as bad as in the evening--no kids in the morning. But nonetheless, there are still a decent parking lot full of people. This is encouraging to me. It makes me feel like I'm not the only one who's battling this problem.

And here is something else, the bathroom at work doesn't work. We've been having to go to the store next door. And because I'm working out and have increased my water intake by about 100%, this is particularly problematic. But here's the question: Do I stop drinking water to be productive in my day and not dread going to the bathroom, or having to hold it so long I don't know if I can make it? Or, do I continue to drink my supposed-to-be 90 oz of water a day to help lose this weight and deal with the embarrassment of going next door to see the guys eight times a day?

Anyway, for now I will take the 5 minute break to go to the bathroom and rejoice in the fifteen seconds outside. But, I'm signing off to go to bed, so I can start it all tomorrow. I will hope and pray I can continue this into next week. And hopefully soon I will get bitten by the writing bug and start on my draft again.

Day 2: Operation Weight Loss

Due to heavy rain finally pouring in, I decided to not risk my life in the 10 minute drive to the gym, and instead did a work out DVD in house. I was lucky for my mother to buy the entire Beach Body workout series (sister company of the famous P-90X) and never use it. I took it, and am using it in situations just like this. I did the 50 minute Turbo Jam work out. I know it's not as good as doing kickboxing in the gym where I'm on wood floor instead of carpet, but I sweated and felt good.

I'm going to do better today. I have to reign this in if I have a chance of success.

Did some self-toning work outs at home this evening while watching Caligula. Never thought I'd say Helen Mirren was hot. Was okay throughout the day. Stayed under the calorie mark, but close to it. Nonetheless, it was day 2. If you stress yourself out, does that burn more calories?

It's lunch that's the problem. I come home for lunch, and I make something that's fast and easy. So the problem will be solved with me cooking the night before for something to heat up. I need to think of some better solutions for lunch. What I noticed today was I was hungry when I got home, I had a bigger dinner. Therein lies the problem. I can't have a big dinner. That's where the weight came from. If you eat a little dinner, you're able to burn it off easier before you go to bed. Also, if you eat before 8p. No carbs after 9p. Period. When I talked to a personal trainer, he said exactly that, and that was probably where my weight came from. I eat well--not perfect, but not horrible--but I do eat late and big. So, I'm going to start working to reverse that.

Every day is something new. Today was at home work outs. Tomorrow will be smaller, more frequent meals and snacks. What's the saying? Three months to make something a habit? Well, I have less than three months to make this a reality.

Now, it seems I've already forgotten the writing portion of my goals. So, tomorrow will be a good day one for writing. Here's hoping.

Day 1

We are off to a great start! I had yogurt on the way to the gym this morning at 5:15 a.m. I worked out for an hour. Thirty minutes on the elliptical, thirty minutes on the bike. Last week when I started back at the gym, I could only make it about 40 minutes before I wanted to die. I think it helps a lot that I started in the morning. So now, I'm up, I'm awake, and my metabolism has been jump started.

When I come home this evening, I will relax (because I have to) and then do an hour of Carmen Electra's strip tease work out. More to report after we try that out.

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Well, okay. That was interesting. I knew Carmen Electra was a skank and a stripper, but damn. At least she has done good ideas for stretching and stripping. I only did half an hour because my knees hurt. I've had knee pain for as long as I can remember. Anyway, here I am with creaking knees, but I'm going to take plenty of medication to help it.

Anyway, I did slip up already on my first day. I was meeting my mother in Blanco to pick up my cat, and she was half an hour late. I went to Sonic and got a kid's meal. So, damn. I had a pretty simple, but unhealthy lunch. So, lesson learned. I'm cooking tonight so I don't waste time tomorrow on my 30 minute lunches at home.

Anyway, I know I can do it. I had about 1400 calories today, but burned about 800. I need to by a scale and see exactly how bad the damage is. I'm taking control. I know I can do it.

This was day one. I did some good and some bad, but you can't quit cold turkey and know you'll get to the other side. It'll happen. On track. Day 2 is a day away.

Day 0

I know I said in April I was going to start over and make this blog a tracker for myself. Obviously didn't work.

Well, I'm doing it now. This blog will be a goal maker. There are two goals I have that I want to meet by the end of 2009. Seeing that It's the Fall season on Tuesday, I don't have much time to make these goals come to reality, but this will make me do it.

Goal 1: I will lose 15 pounds. Last year, I lost 20 pounds going from 190 to 170. I felt so great. Granted, I had quite a ways to go, but it was an amazing start. I should explain how I lost that weight. I went to the gym everyday, twice a day. I worked out for two hours a day and monitored my diet like the government monitors Iraq. It was insane. Well, then in January, I got a job. A fabulous job. It was because of this job I stopped going to the gym as much, and instead of cooking, I would just go out. It was a fast transition to doing a 15-20 hour internship to a 40 hour work week. But in the last 9.5 months, I've gained 15 of the lost pounds back. Thank God, not the whole 20, but still, 15 is unacceptable. Needless to say, I want it back off by my birthday. Galen and I both will work out until we turn green or turn super skinny :).

Goal 2: To finish my book. As I mentioned, I got a job. I got a job in publishing erotica. Since the sixth grade I've been a fan of erotica. I remember the book even that got me started: Olivia by V.C. Andrews. I picked it up because Olivia was my best friend at the time. After I read the first (now I realize PG) sex scene, I was hooked. I read a book by V.C. Andrews every week getting me the reading award in sixth grade. Little did Mrs. Hesse know, I was reading sex. Ah well, needless to say, I started a book for my company and am only 32 pages in. I want it finished by Christmas. It's a trilogy. Anyway, those are my two goals.

For next year, my goals are to finish Claire once and for all and submit it to AFF. I plan to lose another 20 lbs. I will read more. I have my own personal book store in my apartment, and I want to read all of the books. Anyway.

This is what it is, other than my rambling. I'm buying a scale tomorrow. I'm going back to SparkPeople.com. I'm going to the gym at 530-630 every morning from now on. When I come home, I'm cooking dinner and working out here. I will get my weight off. I will.

I read a while ago that Mondays are the best for starting a habit. So, tomorrow, Monday, September 21st will be day one in my make over. It will happen.